Hope Undone (always Hope) ... Picture Poem

I wake up at night and see your body lying next to mines
But I know in my heart, when the sun would rise, you still won't know the color of my eyes
Live alone unloved, or live with someone not loved is really just the same factor
The only real difference, is there's one more body to clean after
I thought a family as one, would make me feel like something
But how can I feel like something, when being with you, makes me feel even more like nothing
My soul cry's out, for all the right answers
As my mind tries to clear itself, from this life killing cancer
Up and down, my world spins like a top
Is there no end to my misery, Damn.. This hell has to stop
I cry a river, trying to ease my mental pain
But I know when I wake up tomorrow; my live will be exactly the same
Despair must leave; I must cling to the glory of hope
Because when God has clearly seen, my soul can't bare anymore
He'll slowly cleanse my life, with the Holy Ghost of healing soap
I hope the Lord hear my pleas, before despair has finally won
Come rescue my wreckage soul, before my mind comes completely undone